Friday, July 24, 2009


I had my baby boy four months ago and now I’m back at work full time. My partner stays at home – does the cooking, takes care of the little man, shares in his adventures. I rely upon a phone call a day and status updates via text message. We rationalize it by saying that I have the greater earning potential, therefore I should work. I want to be able to give him the best in life, but it boils down to the simple fact that I am able to buy him new things but not witness him play with them. I feel like a failure as a mother. I feel like people are blaming my overwhelming determinism for my return to work. They don’t see that my heart aches to be at home rather than in my office, dressed in my sharp attire. I would kill to be at home in my pyjamas, as long as I was there with him. Instead, I bury my feelings and open yet another email...

Julia, Sydney, Accounts Receivable

1 comment:

  1. Awww...this made me feel so sad. Ultimately though, you are working to provide important things like an education and a bright future for your child. Your baby boy will appreciate all you have sacrificed for him, it will be worth it. Just treasure every second you do have with him and be mindful of never falling into the "working Momma" trap. The trap I mean is when you feel so guilty about the lack of time spent you may be tempted to neglect your disciplinary duties. It is soo much easier to try and overlook the unpleasant aspects of parenthood when your time is so precious, but don't. I am speaking from personal experience. That is my advice, although I am a stranger. Children respect their parents when there are rules that must be followed coupled with tremendous love and support. God bless you for doing what you must to provide for your little guy. I sincerely hope that you have many, many fun and precious hours with him.